There are so many random emotions bouncing around my mind right now. I've got several very long posts already written in my mind. It's just that the topics of these posts--my current thoughts and emotions--are so despicable that I can't allow them to leave my mind. I've always been sorta ashamed of my emotions, you know I'm a guy and I guess that's what we do. But now it's different.

What the fuck am I saying???? I don't know.