ugh.

I know there are tons of people going through the exact the same thing I am. I know there are billions of people who live life hungry. I know I shouldn't complain. Will that stop me? No.

Here's why I think my case is slightly different than most of my similarly-aged fellows. I have had sero chances. Other guys my age have had several chances; some have had several hundred chances. I have had zero honest-to-goodness chances. I'm not saying that I deserve a chance anymore than anyone else. I'm also not saying that I will use my chance with a girl any better than any other guy. But I try as hard as I possibly can and every other guy I know has had several more chances than I have. And that part, that very last part, I don't care if you agree/disagree with what I'm saying, that last part kills me.

This is my short little message to any guy who has had his chance and somehow blown it in a big way: FUCK YOU. Fuck every single one of you guys who have somehow gotten some beautiful/smart/fuckingawesome girl to like you and blown it out of stupidity or horniness. Fuck every guy who had a great girl within reach and then kissed some bitch or went for the easy way out or went for the other girl just to see if you could get two. You disgust me. I disgust myself.

I need a friend.