So there are other colors on here. Very interesting.

The water calls me.

My former teacher wants me to CALL her to discuss the lor. This is way too fucking complex. I had it all planned out with a nice little package that the potential letter-writer could read. In this package I included a pre-addressed, stamped envelope and all the necessary information. Now the package is useless. AHHHHH!!!

I just made the single largest non-academic/non-automotive/unnecesary purchase of my life. Well, at least in the past several years. And it was only $160.98. HA!

2005 has been decent to me through the first two months. It started out on a bad note, and there have been a few explosions of angst, but overall it's been a good couple of months. Today was definitely an aberration. The upward trend in qol just hit the ceiling yesterday, and today it began its descent.

Letters of recommendations are retarded. The whole system is based on the assumption that all professors will write these letters with the same principles in mind. Obviously this doesn't happen. There are a million-ish teachers and all them qualify their students in different ways. Whatever, that's all crap. Basically the two people I planned on asking for lor's weren't at school to accept/deny my request. Both of them blew off their office hours (is that even legal?). My art history teacher has a decent excuse since she had some sort of drastic knee surgery, so I'm wondering if I should email her or just let her be. The other, my ucla advisor, completely blew me off without any explanation, and I'm wondering if I'm allowed to slap her now.
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Today was the first 2005 run-in with a certain individual. I'm pretty sure she saw me. Oh man, that fucking cunt. I probably wouldn't of called me back if I were her either, but still, I'm pissed. Maybe not at her, but the world.

Dude, what the fuck, people are already studying for the gre. Studying for the lsat this early makes some sense, but that's still fucking insane, even if you plan on taking it next summer. Fucking insane I say, to all you gunners.

No job prospects for history majors. Absolutely NO job prospects for history phd kids. Law has the highest dissatisfaction rate, and I'm pretty sure I would hate my life as a lawyer. Journalism equates to eternal poverty and I'd have to be a little evil.

I don't think I have the skills, abilities, DRIVE, and intellect to do any of the above careers, the only careers I'm currently considering. I mean all of those are dependent on research, which I had thought was going to be my essential skill, but I ALWAYS end up screwing up my research. I ALWAYS end up skewing sources to serve some poorly reasoned thesis. The short story is I need to get better, but I'm concerned if I can really get better.

If you know what you want to do, even if you only have a blurry idea of your preferred field, you are so unbelievably lucky. I am jealous of you, and I hope you won't take your defined goal granted. Yeah, I take everything for granted too, it's cool.

Why is it that so many people "want" to be "journalists?"

I overheard several people today talking about their plans to be a journalist, and the best part is that they all seemed to be discussing print journalism, specifically magazines. And the people who were making these plans totally didn't fit the picture I have in my head, not that that matters but whatever. Even better than this is how passionate they seemed to be, particuarly this one guy. I realize that today was just an anomaly, and the entire world doesn't have plans to enter print journalism. That said, it was a little weird/freightening.

I don't even plan on being a journalist. I figure the upside to lawyering and professoring is much larger. But I do have this impression of possible, occasional stabs at journalism. And if I went into "public intellectualism" I would definitely be a quasi-journalist. Anyway, despite my lack of plans to be a straight up journalist I'm still bothered by how many people at mesa have stolen my back-up, side-ways career.

Yeah I know they didn't steal it.
Do you want to be a journalist too?

Why specifically do you hate frats and/or frat guys?

Why is it that you hate frat guys and/or frats?

why, specifically, do i hate frat guys? I was asked to explain why and my answer failed to convey how I truly feel.